Make me say

alrighty so i guess i should post something eh?


lol yeah it's about that time and as usual this post is being created in the wee hours of the morning when i remember i have a blog...

sooo school is coming to an end & i must say a good one at that (minus the finals that are gunna kick my bum) but i love the new friends i've met they honestly have made me love my school now and i'm already planning a trip to come back for one of their birthdays! ( : so that's an upside..

i honestly can't believe i'm about to be a JUNIOR though..that's insane i remember when i got my acceptance letter to the first college i attended before i transferred! yeah i was super happy!!
(ugh, side note an annoying person just texted me -_-)

but i bet you guys (well youtubers) are wondering when the heck am i going to make another video... and yes i've been looking for my charger to make my camera come back to life and it's NO LUCK! and i've worn some cute stu(ff(like last night it was this adorable shirt from f21 a tight skirt with a oversize bow in my hair and my sensations halfwig.(adorable) hehe...

but okay i'll make a vid on my sis's webcam next week on whatever i wear to her graduation (i'll come up with something cute just for you guys) [:

alrighty...onto the MEN in my life...

well i'm 0/0 lol meaning i have none.. there's some interested sparking back at home but who knows where that will take me..

but guys i'm superrrrr ready to be in a relationship..i love having a boyfriend and being in love and all that it's just a wonderful feeling to have someone to call all the time (God should be the first though) but like you know what i mean just someone to cuddle up beside, tell funny stories to, go out to dinner/lunch dates, get dressed up and cute for, make smile when they've had a bad day, go volunteer somewhere with, dance at the club with an not feel like a slutbag (ha sorry i only dance with boyfriends..and that's so rare...guess i'm not a dancer anymore..whatever) hm what's another good reason to have a boyfriend... well someone to confide in, someone to fight with but then makeup with, someone to go see scary movies with, to vent to your girls about, to write songs about, to make smily faces at -sigh- the list could really go on..but honestly i just love LOVE.. i love the fact that it's a universal feeling that God gave to us as a gift just to show us how much he loves us... I guess in a since he's letting us feel some love but nothings like His love... But I have that... I'm content don't get me wrong..but I wouldn't mind sharing my life with someone ya know?

idk i know i just went on a huge tangent but sometimes i feel like it must be said... i honestly think the next guy i date will be a really good relationship..i've learned so much from my past (like to trust your man, to do things for him sometimes, make him feel like a King, sometimes trade places and take him out) that kinda thing... idunno i just really think i'm ready...i know that's weird to say but its true.. it's just hard finding someone who is compassionate about finding someone at 19 as i am...
lol..

and even the older guys are scared because i thought it was just guys my age...lol sike it just takes the right guy... sometimes i feel it's hopeless to even think of love when it comes to me but then i look at all the love that surrounds me and the people that have been married 26years(my parents) and my play brothers both named Brian and how they tell me about how much they love and cherish there gals...it gives me hope (:

lol but anyways i gotta go to bed..
i'm exhausted..
night loves..


xo, bri