just a thought

okay so i'm just going to write off the noggin like i usually do but this time my thoughts/ideas maybe all over the place and in fact may not make sense... DON'T say i didn't warn you...

so let's explain the little situation i have going on today.. first off my apologizes to everyone that thought this was going to be a fashion blog.. lol i kinda ended up making it just things that come to my head with an occasional outfits or clothing that i wanted to get but it's more so about relationships, life and my faith...

ANYWAYS!!!

i was thinking that may relationships and me are just not going to happen... like honestly everyone that i attempt in getting into or liking someone always ends up in a big fat FAIL and i'm over it... i'm over the wondering, the guessing games and the figuring out they are talking to someone else.. it sucks ya know.. but honestly i'm trying to see the positive side.. the one that says "God will bring me someone" the "One day my prince will come side" and my strong side.. i mean some women don't find "the one" or even a good relationship until later on in their lives but i always imagine myself with someone else... i know that sounds bad but truth be told that's what a lot of people want.. someone to share the good and the bad days.. and i guess i just expected to have that by now...heck i want to be "the cute couple again" lol..

and recently i started a new approach.. just being very open with the person i was feeling and not really holding back a lot because the last time i was closed mouth and unbreakable the results were "you don't open up to me enough for us to con't" lol it's honestly like i can't win because of course i was more open and next thing i know i call him and get the " i'm talking to future wifey right now" just like that.. as if we didn't establish we had feelings for each other and were looking into getting to know each other.. lol. but whatever..i guess you can't win everyone...

but onto the spiritual aspect that i've learned from this..

i honestly think God is trying to tell me something from all of these failed relationship attempts.. because i do spend a lot of my time focusing on things of that such and not half as much time as spent with him... don't get me wrong.. i pray everyday and read my bible but the relationship some how gets put on a lower dose the moment someone or something big in my opinion walks in my life.. as terrible as that sounds it's probably true for 90% of the people in the world.. because of this we (well i) put these false gods in front of the one and true living God.. weather it's school work, your girlfriend or boyfriend, internship, or furthering your career most of us our guilty or have experienced putting something before their relationship with Jesus Christ.. Therefore i want to really focus on us (me and Christ) relationship... because with doing that i'm sure someone will come along.. and if not so be it.. i really look up to those women of God who really aren't concerned about the opposite sex but love the relationship they have with Christ because as the saying says " A womans heart should be so hidden in God that a man has to seek Him to find her" therefore i will be doing that... in this journey i hope to seek God first and keep that with me even through the trials and tribulations i'll be going through.. anyways thats enough of that for now.. i'll talk to you guys soon [:

xo, bri