Honestly I have no idea if we're just seeing where it goes or if we placed titles of things. As of Sunday he was my boyfriend then we had a argument and he said to be patient with him but everythings the same he still claims me, but are we together..
Well that's the first issue at hand I'm totally lost still on what is going on with me and the guy i'm dating right now... We've known eachother since highschool... we dated...broke up...he fell in love and I had love but was scared to be in love needless to say we got back together and i must say that scared feeling of being in love isn't there anymore... i love him there's no doubt in my mind about that but should it bother me that im still confused...i mean we had a clarifying conversation but then that conversation just threw me for a loop... -sigh- well that's part one of the little issue i'm having...
part two your wondering?
well.... first let me tell you i'm a leo and i follow very strictly by what they claim for me to be... i don't believe in zodiac signs and all that mess but that thing is very right on with me... i'm bossy, attention whore, people person, funny, silly blah blah blah but the main thing i have an issue with is i crave attention i need it... i always want it... and especially from the man in my life... why your wondering ? i have no clue honestly i know someone is going to say i'm trying to feel the void of God in my life with a man who could never live up and i guess there is some truth that sometimes when i see me not showing God as much attention as before my boo seems to get busy all the time and not be able to show me the intrest i was promised....
well to say the least Mr.A (my boo) is ALWAYS BUSY... always involved with something..weather working (2 jobs) and just balancing out family and friend time as well as a social life there leaves very little time for me...time that i wish so badly to find and that yes i'll admit i nag the hell out of him for....
don't get me wrong i'm not one of those clingy sisters that needs to know every second and every move of her man...not at all..but a pet peeve of mines is when someone is texting me , messaging me or skyping me and then just stops out of the blue not because the conversation was going on a slippery slope to no where no no it's when the shit gets good and they just stop,.... Mr.A is good for this...
he knows i hate it too... but still does it...
say for instance tonight... we were texting planning out my birthday day we were going to spend together and after the plans were set we were just talking about whatever we were doing he said he was bored and watching tv so i told him to skype me so i could at least see him.... well he never skypes me... i was waiting and 15 minutes later i decide to go take a shower and he's online but didn't call or message me so i messaged him told him i was getting into the shower and that was that he never responded and i sent him messages to see what the hell happen...no response..still no response...i guess i am needy sometimes, attention whore sometimes...
i mean i HATE waiting i'm impatient as hell and i know for a fact he saw the messages i sent him and probably just didn't respond and i hate being ignored....-sigh- i honestly am sick and tired of waiting on him... i'm ALWAYS waiting on him...well i guess it's good to get that out.... i'm going to go do something with my life..
goodnight.
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